I Love the Holidays!!

So, no matter where you are, or what is going on in your life, the Holidays have a way of making everything seem ok! Good even! So Merry Christmas to the 2 people who read my blog! Love you guys!

Emotional Rollercoaster

Wow... this has been a crazy week! And I have come to the conclusion that I have the most high-maintenance ex-boyfriends ever! I am just waiting for a call from Cody saying that he is engaged again! That would really make my week! So after dealing with the Casey drama that made me feel terrible, I got a text from Kerry. This isn't uncommon as we text each other randomly. But his text said, can we get together later, I need to talk to you in person. My first thought was, you have got to be kidding me. I can not deal with any more drama this week! So I went over there after work, dressed in my Halloween costume, and he tells me that he wants to get back together. I almost started laughing! So one ex wants me to erase him from my life and the other wants to start dating again. CRAZY! So instead pf thinking about either problem, I made the decision that I am ready to date again! So... know anyone single in Utah?

Wow... A lot can happen in a year!

I thought it was fun to see these pictures next to each other! A lot has happened this year!!

anybody?

Wow... I need you ladies right now! So there is this bonfire tonight, and I should really go because I don't have any friends here... but I don't have anyone to go with me! So Mand and Lis, if y'all could come with me tonight, I would really appreciate it! I am trying to muster up the confidence to go so wish me luck!!

{favorite Song: Everytime by Britney Spears}
{favorite memory: Mand's reception and hanging with Lis and the fam}
{latest crush: We'll call him Bob. And he looked HOT today}

How do you know?

How do you know when it's time to heal? Is there a clear sign that the storm is over? or are we just supposed to get it?

At least I know I can handle this...

Well... I have a lot to update but I'm tired and feeling sorry for myself so an update isn't going to happen today! But I will say that Mandy and Matt's wedding was awesome and they both looked amazing! I am extremely excited to come visit Texas and see everyone! I should have more time on my hands now so I will try and write an update soon...

{favorite song: Globes and Maps by Something Corporate}
{favorite feeling: driving my car}

Relationships Suck

So I have recently come to the conclusion that relationships suck! Ok well maybe I, along with everyone else in the world, realized this a long time ago, but it just seems really applicable right now. It just seems like there really isn't a person out there with the right balance for me. I know that isn't true, but that's just how I feel. And you would think that both people in the relationship would feel this weird tension or unsurity, but no... I guess it's just me! I just really don't want to deal with it right now! So instead of dealing with it, I will just sit in front of the TV and really not accomplish anything! That seems like a great way to spend my day!

{song: Too Little Too Late by Jo Jo}
{excited for: a new niece or nephew}
{not excited for: packing and dealing with relationship crap}
{picture explanation: I needed a good laugh}

I miss everyone!! :(

So I have had a really sad week! I miss my mom, I miss my dad, I miss my sister and brother, I miss my roommates, I miss Kerry...

But then... I got a call last night from my best friend from Canada Mark Hanna! I haven't talked to him or seen him in like 3 or 4 years so it was sooo exciting! I miss that kid! And great news... he lives in Idaho and I can go visit him!! And then... the thought of being at Mandy and Matt's wedding, and getting to drive up to Utah with Lisa, got me out of my bad mood funk! So... thanks Mark!

{song: too little to late by Jo Jo}
{craving: Ferrero Roche}
{feeling: home sick}

Just Breathe

Wow!

So my relaxing summer has turned out to be way different than I had expected. My job is crazy, I still don't have enough time in the day to do the things I would like to do, but I guess change is good right? Here are some highlights though...

*Mandy and Lisa coming to visit

*Riding every form of public transportation possible

*Making new friends

*Missing old ones

*Falling in love (again)

*Finally getting to spend time with my sister

Just a few things! I swear I'm going to try and blog more often!!

What would happen if?

I just left work right now
everyone did what they said they would
people weren't crazy and manipulative
people weren't mean
people really lived up to their potential
something went right
I knew what I wanted
I actually got what I wanted
someone really valued my opinion

Would the world stop turning or would my head just explode?

{song of the day: Bruised by Jack's Mannequin}
{grateful for: A kitchen full of cinnamon roles}

Why?

Why does life have to be so hard? I would love to just have a week, or even a day where I don't have to stress about major life decisions. I don't want to deal with it right now!!!!!!

The difference between like and love...

I like my sketchers, but I love my Prada back pack...